I AM FRUSTRATED...SOMEBODY,PLZ DO A FAVOUR..PUT AN END TO THIS ONGOING MADNESS..
some people wail, whine ,complain because someone else 'moves their cheese'..but in my case,it was me who sniffed all different varieties of cheese to ensure quality,picked up the best among them,and then packed it in a cloth,closed my eyes,whirled it around at 1000 some rpm and threw it so far away that now i have absolutely no idea which direction and how far it flew.in short-i have moved my own cheese-
Am i sounding incoherent??i wrote twisted matters?? well ,no one to blame..medical students very often get cynical and irritated..specially when exams approach..looks like something of that kind is happening to me these days..(i must stop using more than one fullstop unnecessarily)...(i m hopeless)! studies relentlessly piling up,tension index rising to record high like NIFTY,frustration taking sneak peeks at my already sad gloomy day..uff..and here is one voice that echos in mind-"babe,u've made a wrong choice.now pay.he he poor you!" the voice mocks me.the critic inside me has a real merciless sense of humour.bloody Sadist!!
and above all,i don't have time to even crib about it..so ,so unfair! anyways,gotta log out.tonnes of studies waiting eagerly to drive it's sharp nails through my flesh.(eew,sounds tad too much)..so,off me goes.tada....
ok, ur cheese went tangential to the radius of revolution, at the pt where centrifugal force became greater than the tension of the string. ur chesse followed a parabolic path and must be somewhere on the ground at a distance of less than 20mtrs.( taking ur power and hoping ur cheese was well over 5 kg.)
ReplyDeletepathetic, thanx 4 the compliment. now take a deep breath, now whats ur problem???
yeah u should stop using more than one fullstop use some on ur frustation.
listen frustation is the spirit of life. so ur voice says u made a wrong choice... so what?
u made a choice at least. And it was ur choice, right? Many people don't have the luuxury!.
now I give a advice that a gal once gave me.. have a Bar of chocolate.... it works.
And don't worry abt those calories.. u have already lost a lot sulking.
And get ur priorities right,are slogging that much worth it? or r u wasting ur time somewhere else?
speaking of time!!! what the fuck am i doin here? Right now, for me even shitting is a Luxury. !!
bye
ha ha..dude,u r gud at physics!
ReplyDeleteur friend's chocolaty advice and ur encouraging philosophical writing made lot of sense.
medical exams can be terrible at times.hardwork and gud result need not go in direct proportions always.an aggreable amount depends on ur last minute luck too.so,this factor is not in our control.n thats where the frustration stems from.!
but hey,now that one exam is over ,i m chillin .i have put fullstop on my frustration ,but u dnt apply it on ur comments..coz,they r fun to read!!
(finally,r u eva gonna reveal ur identity??)
take care..
may be if i get ur mail id... not on ur blog ... may be u could send me a fake id... moreover whats in name?? we surely haven't met! and ya
ReplyDeletewe don't have any connection except this blog...
aare,i wanted to read ur blog anonymous..u write well thats why..i mean send me the link to ur blog
ReplyDeletelet see, u want to read my blog...
ReplyDeleteso i have to send u the link ... that means in a way I am revealing my identity... now someone finding me over here might think it as invasion on their privacy....
So what to do? ok i'll send u the link on ur mail Id... promise me u wont reveal my identity ... ..]
Now, how am i going to do it... well thats my part of the problem. ...
Anyways... did u get ur cheese back????
Now, regarding ur frustation due to last minute study there are 2 options..
1. Don't think about things over which u have no control.
2 do it my way... study only at the last moment.. in that way u won't have the pathetic feeling of studying all and not scoring...
i dunno if my email address appears on my blog so,i wil help u-email id --
ReplyDeleteSENDTHELINK@YAHOO.COM(its not a fake id)
by this even u wont come to know anything abt me so even my privacy is maintained.
yeah u can say i got my cheese ,instead i say,atleast now i know where my cheese lies..
ur advice no.1--very true
ur advice no.2--buddy,tats what i do.othewise which bookworm gets time to blog??..tata..
sorry,ur privacy issues slipped my mind when i posted the previous comment.. but not for long...
ReplyDeletethanx for the mail id ... finding ur email would have been a taxing job... specially when i don't even know ur name....
hope u got the link
ReplyDeleteyes i got..left comments on all ur posts too
ReplyDeleteoh my god.... so many comments.....
ReplyDeletewas it a kind of returning, favour? or u just genuinely liked it? whatever the case.... u just gave me enough motivation to continue...
anywayz thx a lot for those comments..
Anywayz, I didn't show disregard for ur senti senti post...
All i suggested was some harsh realities of falling in love.
And perhasps my sher abt love & dog didn't go down too well with u...
u see u missed the funny side of it... or may be there wasn't any funny side to it at all.
And didn't I send u a very romantic sher as a compensation.....
may be u didn't get its meaning so i'll explain to u... at the yahoo id.
and ya, don't leave ur cheese uncared for too long. Someone might steal it. After all it is of the best quality.
and lastly, don't use the word like vagaira, vagaira on my post.... for my dirty mind reads it as "viagara, vigara" whatever the spelling.
bye.
thx a lot for showin intrest in my blog
no,it wasn't any 'returning of favours' ..i took my own time to read ur posts and put my comments..
ReplyDeletei can take care of my cheese only after internship.right now passing final exams tops my priority list.
and about the dirty mind thing u said.--i m startled..baap re..
u r online???
ReplyDeletesorry i was a little busy...
ReplyDeletecouldn't mailu will do so right now
ok i mailed u the meaning... tell me did it make sense... r u now satisfied???
ReplyDeleteaww..it was superb.thanks..
ReplyDeletei have left a comment on ur blog..
Gues wot- i feel like reading my own thots.. Coz i'm in the same phase as u were wen u'd written dis entry.. I'm searching 4 the peace of mind which has been so elusive since i entered the hell called med coll, n also met all kinds of selfish, backbitching ppl neva realising dat such ppl could even exist..
ReplyDeleteIts a bit cooler dis morning, or i'd say less hot.. n there's no lect at 8 (hardly matters tho, havin bunked many of em)
the books r callin me n i've got a gr8 busy day ahead.. Wil write a better comment wen i find some peace..
oh..i m so sorry mr./miss anonymous,..it's after 3 months that i opened t comment section on this particular post of mine..that's why couldn't reply earlier..it would be nice to know ur name..i guess u r from t same college as mine (considering t level of frustration :p kidding )....know what,im still paying t price for t mistake i have done while choosing medical as my career ,when i had better option available..but,sometimes,t worst phases of ur life will teach u one of t most imp things in life..not everything can go our way.n we can't be good at everything..it's okay to feel distraught,helpless at times..it only makes us stronger.though it's almost a sado-masochistic way of gaining spiritual strength,but do we hav an option?? :) so just try to manage it somehow,but listen to ur heart now on..that's wat i've decided to do..
ReplyDeletegood luck my anonymous friend..wish you all t best :)
namrata
Wow! U replied on my birthday! 2nd aug!
ReplyDeleteYeah.. I'm okay vid dis kinda life now..
There's a marathi phrase i dunno if u're familiar vid- aaliya bhogasi asave saadar...
Givin away my name at dis stage would be too boring.. :) (of course its jus a name n i'm not any celebrity, still)
mais oui! I'm from bee-jay itself..
Oh btw happy independence day to u! College included..
My independence seems remote..
But then, wen u've faced the worst now, after our college, it wil hopefully be la vie en rose..
ReplyDeleteVery true- its a sado-masochist factory- no wonder some of our resident n ap examiners grin wen v aren't able 2 answer questions in viva..
But at least once i wish to top our class.. M jus waitin for the rite time :P
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ReplyDeleteHey,I guess...naah,I am sure I know who you are.. :)but I won't reveal ur identity here,unless you do it so yourself.
ReplyDeleteReally,a sweet co-incidence..me replying on ur birthday :) ..btw,wish you a belated happy birthday.
Me pan marathich ahe :) ..7th paryant shuddha marathi medium madhe shikleli mulgi :)..and the phrase you mentioned couldn't have been more apt for t situation u r going through right now..but t bad patch will get over soon.:)..It always does!
It might sound weird to many but internship was t best part of my mbbs .Had decided not to touch books,so could enjoy it even more :)but as they say,old habits die hard.n whining is wat I am very good at! :p so,I won't say all izz well, as yet.Chiefly cuz I still haven't figured out what I want to do in life :p.. so pushing myself thru those myriad cet books seems like an uphill task.
And yeah,all our residents/lecturers are t nincompoops gone right.(opposite of a genius gone wrong).Those idiots (not all are bad though) couldn't belong anywhere else,so they entered in medical n made a mess of this beautiful profession.foremost reason why I detested my stint in bee jay :(.no decent person to look up to.just how long can we go self-motivating? I gave up right after our vedant :p
And lastly,all the best to u in ur endeavour. :)..and forgive me for writing this insanely huge comment.I am girl.I like to talk.and when I don't,I type :p
Bye.
-Namrata
So u wanna do a pg in medical field only? i'm lookin at other options after mbbs.. Some allied course in u.s. seems the best option as of now..
ReplyDeleteU mus be from arshaj n ketan's batch? A localite?
Of course i revealed my identity myself on purpose tht i didn't wanna wait for 3 more months before u noticed my reply to ur comment :) ..
U're a gal.. Its natural 4 u 2 catch every opportunity to talk/type :)
With me its somewhat different.. I'm dun talk much vid many ppl.. Its like i have a comfort zone n i do talk a lot vid ppl in tht zone.. N very less vid those outside it.. The disadvantage is i can't make new frens easily- rather i'm very choosy n particular abt whom i like n whom i don't talk much vid..
Another fact abt me- weneva i'm writing something, i end up vid looong sentences n one sentence seems almost like a paragraph..
Bye..
yeah..pg sounds the most reasonable choice.i had plans of GRE but dropped them.can't stay away from my family :( n my bf will kill me if I leave him n go :p..kidding.
ReplyDeleteyes,I am from 2003 batch..arshaj chi batch -mate,who also happens to be a very good friend of mine.
Even I am somewhat reserved re.I behave like an extrovert on blog but in real life,I am just t opposite..:)I have to find something common with t person I am suppossed to be friends with.U and I have a few things common ,including our disappointment with mbbs :p,I think we'll make great blog friends :)I will meet you if I ever come to college..
cya :)
-namrata
Voilà! The last line is wot describes me perfectly.. I mean if we'd met in person i would't hav said even 5% of the things i did, here.. I'm very much comfortable vid typing n texting than talkin in person during the initial period until i'm pretty much familiar vid the person.. Altho i wanna change this trait of mine.. Wanna learn to converse wel vid unknown ppl..
ReplyDelete*I meant the first line of ur last paragraph..
ReplyDeleteha ha..I know re..and it's okay to be a bit reserved,unless we really want to change..So,I can understand..I am no different :)
ReplyDelete-namrata