Monday, June 28, 2010

Thank you.. :)

It's my birthday today.and i want to thank my mother for having gone through all that pain for bringing me out into this world..and it's not just for the labour pain but for all the efforts she took to feed me on time,keep me safe,protect me when i could not protect myself,for making the best food in the world to keep her little angel happy,for all the hugs n kisses,for all the forgiveness and unconditional love she gave me without asking anything in return,for bearing with my adolescent bouts of angst,frustration,temper tantrums,for all the chocolates and cakes she showered me with :) ,for her patient persistence,for teaching me to love n care,for being strong when i wasn't and for almost each n everything..thank you mommy dearest!!you are the best..
and my dad,how can i not thank him?my friend,my guide,my inspiration.for working so hard to support and protect his family,for playing with me and making me laugh like crazy,for being such a jovial person,for making me feel so safe and secure,for teaching me to drive a car when i seriously doubted my non-existent skills of learning,for believing in me and for being the best dad in the world!! love you guys.love you the most..

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Random Thoughts

Like we are born,die,we must! I am not sure if we are born to accomplish a certain role,fulfill some purpose on earth.from evolutionary point of view,it's proven that only the fittest survive n conserve their race.we,as individuals have been allotted some time on this planet.I don't know if it's length n quality is pre-decided.though I certainly hope that it's not.like we were born out of sheer luck n survived so far through chance,my simple logic says,our future shall be no different from matters of luck n chances.

I am talking about those aspects of our existence which are beyond our control.and I don't intend to slip into negativism here.I am talking about the facts that we can't change by the virtue of our finite capacities as human beings.we are mortal n all the people we see around today won't be there after a 100 yrs.after death,our bodies too,will decompose and become inorganic.becoming one with the earth.as such,life just appears as a journey from randomness to randomness.so now the question that bothers me is what should I do to impart more meaning and orderliness to this inherently random existence?

Being born as a human being whose thinking horizons stretch beyond the mundane concerns of survival,I can't be wrong in questioning some basic aspects of the existence of my species and life in general.I am saying this because many people discourage us from thinking on these lines.They fear that we might lose our faith and wander purposelessly like a satellite,that has slipped out of it's orbit.when your basic beliefs on which you structure your entire life are shaken to the roots,what will remain to keep us on that proverbial 'track'?there would remain no fear of doing wrong or a compelling reason to do right, with boundaries between good n bad,moral immoral,turning so faint.This world will become chaotic beyond measure.BUT, reasoning like this only justifies why we need the system of faith and religion,but it doesn't go even close to answering 'the' question.to be or not to be..I don't expect any religion or philosophy to answer that question because first of all,it's beyond our comprehension,and secondly,every human has a unique way of dealing with it.

If life is intrinsically meaningless outside the confines of survival and procreation,then what can be done to make this journey more spirited and hassle free? To this, everyone has to find an answer at an individual level.Knowing life's futility and hence directing our efforts towards making it a little sensible and altogether enjoyable is important.This awareness of the reason behind doing what we do is a sort of spiritual awakening,I think.Many people just go through life without pausing and giving it any thought.This awareness will help us want to survive through some bumpy patches this path has on offer.

For me,my love(most importantly for myself and my close ones),compassion towards all living beings, being able to do something real and worthwhile for them,exploring my inner world,purifying myself as a human,being able to appreciate complexities of human nature and it's depiction in the form of various arts seems to impart some sense to my life.It need not necessarily make sense to others.not even to you may be.But that's not necessary.I have my perceptions and my beliefs that make sense to me,and prevent me from getting distraught thinking about the sheer absurdity of life..


the article was written after i read about the different stages of putrefaction/decomposition of human body after death,(a part of my syllabus)which usually begins almost immediately after death..a process of converting a human into a skeleton.it just got me thinking and one thought led to the other,culminating into this article..