Your empty words won't soothe me,
I am too complex to be tamed by your farcical philosophies.
Your rigid virtues, selfish moralities nauseate me,
Your fake smiles,fake living,fragile egos,
your sick ambitions,selfish aspirations,
I can see it all.But I maintain my silence and an apparent indifference.
But no, I can't follow your ways.Nothing attracts me to such a life,
Your worldly possessions won't allure me.
Your crude patriotism and politics,your fake pride and emotional coldness sicken me.
You are your car,your house,your money,
your parties,your hangovers,your labels and brands,
There's nothing more to you.You end there.
I am an unfinished work,a task in progress,a vessel to be filled,an unexplored continent.
and I will take my time.
Yes,I am a pool of confusion,irony,contradiction,a victim of my own inner upheaval
but I have a chance that you probably don't.
I may be obnoxious because I challenge your ideology,
because I question too much,
because I am not happy with the current state of affairs,
because I ask for some changes.
because at times,I am an atheist and a nihilist,
which creeps you out,
because you can't gather enough courage to face these questions.You are just so afraid.
But there is one more thing that separates us,
You hate me endlessly
but I,
I don't hate you
I don't pity you.
I don't even condemn you.
I only request you to come on this side and see the view.
Who knows,you might be the knowledge we all seek,
you might be the light we need in times so bleak.
But the journey is long and the path is not clear,
and certainly, not without a possibility of a catastrophic failure
like a faithless soul,lost in the vast dark space.
May be that scares you.
But how long can you go on fooling yourself and run away from the 'question' ?
You want a quick-fix, but it's not the solution.
What's the fun in being where you stand right now? A fool's paradise.
You are sitting on a bomb that nastily goes off at all wrong times.In series.
And you are left devastated,your faith crumbled,your hopes crushed and you curse the quick-fix that never promised a permanent cure.
Get a grip.Take a leap of faith.
Explore the deepest corners of your mind,ask questions and seek answers for yourself,
and may be,help us seek ours.
Join in the force of spiritual revolution
give some hope to the next generation
and give them a purpose that's real.
A logical answer and no candy floss, lame answers.
Let's all get together and initiate a wave of change.
In the process,we might lose something,
but was that even worth keeping?
I don't care if human race vanishes from earth in next 100 or 1000 years,
till the time we are here, breathing ,we deserve some explanation.
We deserve a system of faith that won't fall apart with every tiny firecracker explosion,
the truth that lasts,strong and steady.Not just another illusion.
We may not reach the shores with the wave we are creating,
but someone will.And that's reason enough to get started,isn't it?
he he..love u too sweetheart! :) and thank you for those kind words of appreciation..really means a lot to me :)
ReplyDeleteoh WOW! this is so perfectly thought and executed.... such strong points emphesised and put into perspective.... hats off nams, i didnt know u were such a great writer... i loved it.... so catchy... read it twice....and what an ending," We may not reach the shores with the wave we are creating,
ReplyDeletebut someone will".... amazing!!!
a very powerful write.....
keep it up.hats off nams... arsh
thank you arsh :) such a positive response ! inspires me to write more..n this time fearlessly..more openly.thanks :)
ReplyDeleteand the one i am confronting in my post,could even be me ,in addition to all other myriad possibilities..and no,i am not schizophrenic :)
ReplyDeletewow...
ReplyDeletewhat was that Namrata!!!
absolutely wonderful !!!
nice to know that I have such friends ....
on the lighter note, UPSC kar with Philosophy optional... u ll score like thousands ......really..
n m sad that couldnt go through ur previous posts..{ Gharcha net band ahe... cafe madhe basloy }
but would love to read the rest as well... hope my laptop starts soon..
n no need to remind from next time ,I ll check it myself..tc.....
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ReplyDeletei have no idea..may be rambling thoughts of an irked mind..a 'fight club' hangover..lots of anger..forever whiner..or may be so bloody tired of seeing how people behave and do things basically just to show-off..religions n fake spirituality..ppl walking around like zombies..nobody thinks..superstitions,competitions,non-stop rat race n blah blah blah..angry angry super angry..
ReplyDeletechillax dear,,
ReplyDeleteneed not waste time in thinking abt others ,, there are bigger n meaningful things which we can do...rt??
u urself have put it in ur other note ,,rt!!!!!
yeah..u r rite..it was basically 'fight club' (english) movie effect..:p just a passing phase :)
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