Who is your best friend?

I have forgiven her
for all the wrongs she has done so far,
for all the mistakes she did knowingly or unknowingly,
for all her inadequacies,
for all her designing n functional faults,
for all the wrong decisions she has made,
for all the harsh words she has uttered and the pain it caused to others and to herself,
for all the stupidities she has done..
and in turn,she forgave me
for being so harsh to her,
for being so critical about everything she did ,
for judging her based on other people's opinions ,
for cursing her for something that was never her fault ,
for hating her unconditionally,
for digging up past events to make her feel bad about herself,
for not appreciating her enough whenever she did anything commendable..

BUT now,

Now we have patched up our frayed relations.
my savage brutality towards her is over.
we love each other now.
and I've found my best friend in her.
now she confides in me without hesitation.
because,now she knows that i would never leave her side.
even if she does something stupid,she knows i would still love her.
even if she fails,she will not be afraid of trying again.
because, I am there to support her through her journey of life
And I have accepted her just the way she is.
and she said,this tranquility and peace will encourage her to improve herself in a healthy atmosphere.
she is confident that,with my support, she can survive even the biggest setbacks in life,
and still come out as a winner.
I will always listen to her and she will march ahead in life fearlessly.
We are now best friends.and shall never part ways again.
How can we? when she happens to live right 'WITHIN ME'.
My soul,my mind,my heart..I don't know what to call her,
apart from knowing that she is somewhere inside,who makes me what I am.what I think.what I do. 'SHE IS ME'.
And I am happy to say that I love myself!with all the faults.with all the inadequacies.with all the imperfections.
Nobody is born perfect!we work on ourselves all the time towards improvement.
But it is equally important to love ourselves through this process.and never be too hard on ourselves when we fail to meet our own expectations.
for where are we gonna go?we can run away from the world but how can we run away from ourselves?
We can't.
So give yourself another chance.
So what if you failed?Get up,dust off the dirt n start again.
Don't let others decide how you should be treating yourself.get rid of that burden of guilt and start afresh!
We all make our share of mistakes n stupidities and this is precisely how we learn and grow.
your confidence,your faith,your spirit lies right within you.just listen to it!
You can't afford to cross swords with it.
As someone has wisely said-"You can't expect to win a battle,when your enemy has his outposts in Your Head"
So,go ahead.It's time to shake hands with your best friend :)








-this article is for all those who are excessively critical towards themselves and never seem to be happy for whatever they are.guys,ease up.loosy-goosy baby.take a chill pill.love thy neighbor but more importantly, love thyself...


-a non stop preacher.

catharsis

I've been here in this world for over 20 yrs now and if there is one thing i understood very clearly about this maddening planet is that this place is replete with injustice.go anywhere,you can't escape from it.it stares back at you from every nook and cranny.you can close your eyes,turn a deaf ear,but that wont make it disappear.it has clung on to this civilization like a leech.and it totally sucks!

you take a walk on mg road,with your friend,ecstatic about good whether,career falling in place,wearing nice new branded clothes and suddenly you notice a lady,probably in her seventies,lying on the roadside,begging for money with t hands that leprosy destroyed half way to hell,trying to cover her dignity with those scanty bits of clothing..and all you can do is give her some paltry amount and walk away.the feeling is overwhelming so much so that you begin to feel guilty of wearing new clothes and may be even for being happy.smile vanishes in a matter of split second and reality comes down crashing at you.

you are lucky because you were born in a family where food was plenty.there was no cruel struggle for everyday existence.or good clothes,luxuries of life were not hard to come by.you went to a good school and adopted modern ways,lifestyle.you could easily get your hands at new magazines and picking up latest trends is just another thing for you.but why is it that only you were chosen by god to bestow all his love upon?doesn't he care about millions out there who die of hunger,malnutrition?why does he listen to our prayers that we chant from our air conditioned houses but pay no heed to the cries of helpless souls from the streets?just because they were not born in privileged families doesn't mean that they should be doomed to this horrible existence for their entire life.they work on road construction sites in 45degree heat,while we zoom away in our cars,windows rolled up..these are just a few examples.what about female foeticide?child labor?sexual harassment?homelessness?lobbying by powerful groups silencing the cries of weak ones?wars fought for the greed and power?and they say god exists..where?in your posh white-marble,custom made temples?where the poor ones are stranded in queues for hours because rich ones got VIP passes?and they say god answers all our prayers.what a terrible lie!

we are here on our own.and the reason for this place to rot is us.and it's us who will make the mends.and if we don't,we will pay for it.there is no higher power sitting in the heavens over our heads,watching our moves.the power of scrutiny lies in our own conscience which will keep tabs on our actions.i hope that guiding voice in me doesn't fade out in the mad race of winning and proving myself.as far as it exists,i exist.without it,i am just a bunch of crazy billion cells,working on the sole purpose of keeping me breathing,nothing more..

i have a question..

I am finding it difficult to type in the dark..(oh yeah ,i still have to look at the keyboard while typing..and yes i tried adjusting the screen so that it throws some of its light on the keyboard,but i am not entirely happy with this idea.the light is still insufficient)
i wonder why and how come no laptop making company could think of such an obvious trouble??rightly illuminated keyboards should not be a luxary,they are a need..

this post doesn't deserve a title

Aww...it has been such a long time..i am so sorry my blog dear,i left u blank for such a long period..i know,the sole purpose of ur existance is to get written on , but then,what can i do???i am currently on 'no thinking' mode..and it is so difficult (and dangerous) to post something when you are not thinking anything.but i hope now you are happy.Don't worry,i wont let you die..

ok..enough of talking to myself..


so,all you people out there,who were kind enough to visit my blog once in a blue moon,i wanna tell you that I -AM -BACK. but,since the list of people who visit this blog is almost empty,i am practically, still talking to myself..

anyway..since i don't think my idle brain can cook up anything more just to make this post look a little neat,i sign off..see you soon :)

I am proud of her.but....

Have u heard this joke??
presidents of 3 countries - India ,China and U.S. chatting.
Mr.china-we make the best fountain pens in the world.entire world uses our pens.what do u do?
Mr.U.S.-you asking what we do??accepted that u make the best pens,but its us who make it's nib and give it the finishing touch.
(now both look at Mr.India.curious abt wat he has to say)
Mr.India-we print on the pens-'MADE IN INDIA'.

Sunita Williams was born and brought up in U.S. and considers Needham, Massachusetts to be her hometown.but for us ,some strings of her paternal connections wit our land and her kitty that contains a copy of bhagavad gita ,a small figurine of lord ganesha and samosas are enough to boast around the world and shout from the roof top tat she is the make of this country.and thats why her safety matters.only hers.and then we do havana and yagyas(same old faltugiri,because we are not capable of doing anything else.and hell,we are doing it for a SCIENCE PERSON?? paradox,isn't it??scientist and havan-the match couldn't be more suitable.)

Sunita is a brave lady.supremely talented,hardworking and overall a very respectable personality.wishing her a safe comeback is a sign of our humane side.but our job ends there.but here
we should not forget that she is just a human being.not god.appreciate her for what she has done.pray for her safety but don't forget others.don't show such selfishness at least in prayers.otherwise don't pray.there is no need to create such big dramas for those rusty news channels.they can go to any extent to raise their trp ratings..

we need to shed this tendency of relating anything and everything that is great to us in all possible ways..don't waste energy in this.channelize it properly.gear up!work hard and become someone of good use to this country.don't just sit and appreciate those who are already successful.derive inspiration from them and put yourself to some work.
closing line-i have heard a person say, " Gautama Buddha became great because he received the same initial religious lessons like all Hindus.his father was Hindu by religion..our Hindu religion is great and he is what he is because of us". oh my god!!!..very original 'theory of relativity', what else??

grrrhh.....

If i had a gun today,i would certainly have shot that bloody pig..but i could not do a thing.i could just watch him turn his bike and zoom away before i could see the number of his bike..damn..this feeling of anger and helplessness is killing me from inside.

SCENE-me,quietly driving my car.signal went green so it was my right to move.and then suddenly out of nowhere this two wheeler crowd came down rushing from the left apparantly scaring me for a moment..one of them is a guy,who straight comes and bangs my car from the side.before i could understand what was happening,he uttered some bad words,turned his bike,now a bit funny and strange part - he actually kicked my car from behind- and rushed away..was he some psychotic person or something??and the most shameful thing was that nobody seemed to mind except me. instead all the gaadiwallas constantly blew horns till my wits end, apparantly cursing me for having blocked their road..what the heck???i am appalled and deeply disgusted at puneri crowd's selfishness and utter disregard for traffic rules..really pathetic.
and after this incidence,all i could do was to take my car aside and look for any damage that psychopath might have inflicted..

and while all this was happening,where were the traffic policemen???probably managing the traffic of 'wada-pav and chai' down their foodpipe in some nearby canteen where that canteenwalla can't ask them for bill payment..

bu hu hu..one more time

I AM FRUSTRATED...SOMEBODY,PLZ DO A FAVOUR..PUT AN END TO THIS ONGOING MADNESS..
some people wail, whine ,complain because someone else 'moves their cheese'..but in my case,it was me who sniffed all different varieties of cheese to ensure quality,picked up the best among them,and then packed it in a cloth,closed my eyes,whirled it around at 1000 some rpm and threw it so far away that now i have absolutely no idea which direction and how far it flew.in short-i have moved my own cheese-
Am i sounding incoherent??i wrote twisted matters?? well ,no one to blame..medical students very often get cynical and irritated..specially when exams approach..looks like something of that kind is happening to me these days..(i must stop using more than one fullstop unnecessarily)...(i m hopeless)! studies relentlessly piling up,tension index rising to record high like NIFTY,frustration taking sneak peeks at my already sad gloomy day..uff..and here is one voice that echos in mind-"babe,u've made a wrong choice.now pay.he he poor you!" the voice mocks me.the critic inside me has a real merciless sense of humour.bloody Sadist!!
and above all,i don't have time to even crib about it..so ,so unfair! anyways,gotta log out.tonnes of studies waiting eagerly to drive it's sharp nails through my flesh.(eew,sounds tad too much)..so,off me goes.tada....

300-not just another war movie..

Just had a luck of watching this great piece of work.I give it 9/10.could not give full 10 points since i wished the movie could extend a bit longer..it was just too good..

It's a one and half hours of terrifying,jaw dropping,sensational battle experience.It's a story of 300 Spartans fighting against tens of thousands of Persians.A glorious part in the history of Greeks and which inspired many generations ahead,where 299 brave men with their leader of honour-the king Leonidas fought against and repulsed the enemy in the narrow pass of Thermopylae to protect the independence of their land and prevent the impending enslavement of their wives,children and the elderly..

It's a war movie.and thus viewers won't escape a hell lot of bloodshed,decapitations and such great extremes of violence.that is what the niche of war movies so far made,have delivered.BUT,director sure deserves a huge round of applause for his innovative way of creating violence on screen which is much milder than the other forms we have seen.we don't feel disgusted for sure.director has used more of gray,brownish and golden shades and thus blood no longer appears the same dangerous red..

Director has taken generous help from the highly advanced digital and visual effects technology and has been successful in putting life into each battle scene.I have never seen such brilliant use of slow motions before.A scene where the king-Leonidas moves ahead and cuts the innumerable enemies into multiple pieces is still so vivid in my eyes..

Excellent cinematography is the strongest point of the movie.Heavy metal that fills the background score is historically just perfect.The army of well built,8 packs abs,6 plus feet tall Spartans draped in crimson red is way too impressive.The king Leonidas,the Persian king Xerxes carried immense aura.dialogues are effective,power packed..there are some quick,short and highly effective sentences like;
"eat a hearty breakfast,coz tonight,we dine,IN HELL"
"come back,with the shield,or on it"


And most of all ,the performance of each single actor is award deserving.They all must have done ample hard work to move their audience by emotions.As a certificate to their brilliance,the viewers in some scenes cheered ,and in some others they clapped.

movie has been beautifully made.(except some uncomfortable scenes)it appeals to our aesthetic senses.So many war movies have been made but,never did the movie atmosphere feel so mysterious, wheat fields never looked so beautiful and never was the fight with spears and swords so impressive!!

this movie is a masterpiece.Go for it.I bet,you won't be disappointed..it simply rules...

hu ha indya

what da heck!!we lost the khata-khol match against bangladesh..such a poor start of this much awaited WC..shame shame..the way our 'runner up' team of last wcup displayed it's talent on the field yesterday,i am afraid,we wont even qualify for the super six thingie.even thinking of winning wc is now like being in a fool's paradise.

i think,one can make a reasonable guess about a players psychology if he/she watches him play carefully.a player's body language speaks a lot about his mental state..and during the match,i felt there was absolutely no spirit in our players.right from the start..
gosh!! dear sehwag,sachin,DHONI,dravid..whats wrong with you guys??how could you turn out to be such bad eggs??or were you all thinking tat it's just a practise match?may be you underestimated the dark horse bangladesh team way too much..ab bhugto..

anyways,i shouldn't waste much time on crying or criticizing here..we still have one more chance against bermuda... ..let's keep our fingers crossed..

bu hu hu..

i just now deleted my favorite post -read on-...bu hu hu..feels really bad!!but i had to do it..

some undesirable college elements are currently active on orkut.and since the link to my blog appears on my orkut profile,there is a free access for anyone..it could have been a problem had they read that perticular post!!..(i am not talking about those 'anonymous postings 'at all)..

anyways,i should be getting back to my studies(uff,life is so boring!)..bye for now.